20061031

sodon'tgiveitaway

now, if i wrote you a love note, and made you smile with every word i wrote; what would you do? this ring here represents my heart, and everything that you've been waiting for. i can see us on the countryside, sitting on the grass, laying side by side, you could be my baby. ain't gotta do nothing crazy. see, all i want you to do is be my love.

when does it happen? when u decide that you have stopped missing someone? when it used to be so great. when if you went a day without talking to that person you'd feel empty; like something was missing in your soul. when just thinking or looking at a simple msg would make you smile. when just sitting beside the person could feel so right. i guess the missing never stops. so i'm just wondering when did things change? because nowsdays, things aren't how i had pictured them to be: you, me, happy. its impossible now.. it seemed like i always fell short.and you may say otherwise, but why didn't you show it? show that i meant everything to you to everyone. i know you, but i don't. so i guess this, ironically, really is a i-miss-your-ass-very-much post. you don't see it, but i do miss you so, so much that sometimes when i think bout what we had, i feel the same hollowness as when you left. and being just a friends somehow doesnt measure up to that. and its really tough acting like i don't love you anymore. because i do. but you don't want me, so wat else is there to say? i guess itll be better if i just shove it away and go back to the start.

à moi vous êtes parfait; 13:53

20061029

youdon'tgettodecide

there's said to be some things in life that we have totally no control over;

#1 where we're born
#2 who our parents are
#3 what we're named
#4 what other say/think bout us
#5 who we love &
#6 who loves us back

and when we try to change these things, it just comes back to bite you on your ass. but you know, we cant control these things, but im sure there are lots of other things which we can. the only things one needs to be equipped with is the resolve and someone to help along the way. and if you find that one person to get you by when crap hits a bigass fan, then i guess your the luckiest one in the whole entire world. because many a time, that person you thought would always weather the storm with you.. runs away, and heck, maybe wasn't all that great to begin with. well, life sucks, and i guess we have no control over that either. so if you really think bout it, maybe resolve's the only thing that'll pull us through.

à moi vous êtes parfait; 23:12

20061027

dreamswon'tkeepyouwarm

cos all of the stars are fading away, just try not to worry, you'll see them some day. take what you need, and be on your way. and stop crying your heart out..

ps. imm not psycho. :/

à moi vous êtes parfait; 17:40

20061026

timehascometoday

time waits for no man. time heals all wounds. all any of us can want, is more time. time to stand up. time to grow up. time to let go.

rain rain go away! actually don't, since i just gt homee from a long day of school. its nice to have a uber hot shower after you get caught in the rain! think its one of the nicest feelings in the world (: anywyas, fine, it wasnt really that long a day, of cos it only consisted of 2 classes. still i felt drained. for no reason at all. and something hit me tdy, THREE WEEKS till finals. crap and two tests on the same day next week too. no, there isn't much time left.

time. its all arnd, happening, but intangible. and so people don't feel time leaving, the urgency. and with time, changes happen. but people don't realise that changes affects everything. and you want everything to just end so you can finally feel like you can walk free again. hah but life's not that nice. youve gtta earn it. and when you dont...

ps. for those who don't get the picture, its titled 'stopping time' get the picture now? heh (:

à moi vous êtes parfait; 16:15

20061025

oh,theguilt

first, do no harm. and we pledge to live by this oath. but harm happens and then guilt happens. and there is no oath for how to deal with that. guilt never goes anywhere on its own, it brings its friends - doubt and insecurity.

and so, we are left with a choice. either let the guilt throw you back into the behavior that got you into trouble in the first place, or learn from the guilt and do your best to move on.

-

funny how things go around. things you dont want people to know. but it gets out. and when that happens, the people you love most get hurt or worried or all of the above. and they start to think that hey, maybe you aren't the person they thought you to be. that you've gt major issues, that your emotionally unstable, because you've been acting all hot and cold. but in fact, you were hiding. to put on a happy face to the world arnd you to avoid em getting worried or thinking your totally insane. but it gets out anyway, and nothing you do can take it back. and then the guilt, for making those who love you, but don't usually say it, worry. and because there isn't much communication since forever, noone has any idea how to make things right. so there you go, your the psycho of the family. icing on the top of everything else. so thanks for nothing.

à moi vous êtes parfait; 23:23

20061024

letsgobacktothestart

i had to find you, tell you i need you. tell you i set you apart.

-

okays, so ive gt a monkey hanging on to my back for dear life. yes the nephews here. looks like another day of madness! omg i wenta vivo ytd and its how fucking big please! we went to topshop and tried on a buncha stuff. me and bridget went nuts! and we tried on this corset thing and backless tops! stuff we wouldn't usually wear la bascially, but they looked so cute we wanted to buy em! haha but we're more of tshirt sneakers people see. haha anyways, some picas from the cam-whoring session ytd! haha

oh! and paris hilton's nothing in this world is stuck in my head! and no, its not in my playlist!!!! it was on m-friggin-tv and it was played in the morn so you know wat i was mumbling the whole of ytd! da da da da dadadada..... hahahaha but its soooooo catchy. therefore ive decided that paris hilton is satan spawn trying to brainwash the world with her crapass of melodies and tunes she calls music. wat in the hell is that world coming to! argh! o! found this on some myspace oth website! presenting.....

THE TELL ME ABOUT YOURSELF SURVEY!!!!

Name: teo yirongggg, rebecca :p why do they do that! put the chinese name first! haha well, not sth u can control! watchur named, unless ur named titiporn, that, you might wanna change.*hur niq! tht cudve been you right? HAHA
Birthday: 22081987
Birthplace: singaporee
Current Location: singapore
Eye Color: brown
Hair Color: hur red! but it ran, so its brown again!
Height: 165? arnd there bouts!
Right Handed or Left Handed: righty right
Your Heritage: chinesee?
The Shoes You Wore Today: slippers!
Your Weakness: dwlding onetreehill and watever music that comes alongg!
Your Fears: being left behind
Your Perfect Pizza: hawaiian with lotsa cheese and pineapples! do u like cheeseee? ;p
Goal You Would Like To Achieve This Year: actually study and do well for finals!
Your Most Overused Phrase On an instant messenger: ok. yano how when people gt nth to say they just say ok? hello! conversation killer!
Thoughts First Waking Up: do i have schl tdy?
Your Best Physical Feature: maybe my chicken legs! HAHA
Your Bedtime: whenever?
Your Most Missed Memory: living on holland grove road ):
Pepsi or Coke: COKE coka colaaaa
MacDonalds or Burger King: hmm mac's apple pie! think macs have some addictive stuff added in their food. people have been eating macs since they were born man! i know i have!
Single or Group Dates: single
Lipton Ice Tea or Nestea: LIPton instant peach ones! reminds me of genting highlands somehow
Chocolate or Vanilla: BOTH
Cappuccino or Coffee: dont drink coffee! maybe i should start!
Do you Smoke: noo
Do you Swear: haha go figure!
Do you Sing: not publicly!
Do you Shower Daily: yes yes twice a day. waters not free, but its hot here!
Have you Been in Love: guess so!
Do you want to go to College: in college.
Do you want to get Married: maybe yeah
Do you belive in yourself: everyone should!
Do you get Motion Sickness: haha nope! but i know a couple of boos who do :p
Do you think you are Attractive: not for me to say i think!
Are you a Health Freak: gimme gimme pizza anyday over wheatgrass watever shake. haha
Do you get along with your Parents: i spose so!
Do you like Thunderstorms: yeah! romantic! but hey, provided u dont get struck.
Do you play an Instrument: nooopee i wish i did tho!
In the past month have you Drank Alcohol: yeah
In the past month have you Smoked: no
In the past month have you been on Drugs: nooppee
In the past month have you gone on a Date: i dont remb! but depends on wats defined as a date!
In the past month have you gone to a Mall: yesterday! to the BIGASS VIVO! haha the people there are kinda weird. some wwear pjs, thats freaky. whats wrong with people man
In the past month have you eaten a box of Oreos: noppe
In the past month have you eaten Sushi: YEAH ytd! i L-U-V sushi! <3 ok thats gay.
In the past month have you been on Stage: nope
In the past month have you been Dumped:
In the past month have you gone Skinny Dipping: nope
In the past month have you Stolen Anything: haha i dont remb!
Ever been Drunk: not yet!
Ever been called a Tease: HAH
Ever been Beaten up: not yet! havent gtten slapped neither. im a happy person! people dont beat up happy people. ok maybe they do! but not me, not yet.
Ever Shoplifted: dont think so!
How do you want to Die: happy
What do you want to be when you Grow Up: IDK
What country would you most like to Visit: as many as i can!

In a Boy/Girl..
Favourite Eye Color: cmms!! hahah im kiddin anythings fine
Favourite Hair Color: brown/dark?
Short or Long Hair: medium
Height: not too tall
Weight: not overweight
Best Clothing Style: as long as he doesnt look like a jackass

Number of Drugs I have taken: i duno! not drugs drugs but medicine drugs! i use my bros nadal spray once in abit even tho nths wrong with me! HAHAH
Number of CDs I own: what CDs? its all dwlding now man
Number of Piercings: 6! ears tho! NOWHERE ELSE!
Number of Tattoos: zero! my mom'd kill my ass!
Number of things in my Past I Regret: hmm try not to regret! i think thats important.

à moi vous êtes parfait; 18:10

me and mc'retard

à moi vous êtes parfait; 18:05

i like teh butterfly-ish back! hur

à moi vous êtes parfait; 18:04

forgive the psycho face

à moi vous êtes parfait; 18:03

haha our chicken legs!

à moi vous êtes parfait; 17:58

frontsidee :p

à moi vous êtes parfait; 17:58

backsidee! hahhaa

à moi vous êtes parfait; 17:55

20061023

bemyescape

and i am a hostage to my own humanity, self detained and forced to live in this mess i've made and all i'm asking is for you to do what you can with me, but I can't ask you to give what you already gave

-

ytd was great, manu actually won convincingly against the bindippers and i got to play tennis. plus bowling(well, sorta), sitting in a 100000year old car which speed-o-meter(among other things) DOESNT work, with a driver who clearly likes driving; in reverse/faster than a speeding bullet/kookoobananas, late night mussels (for the fatty boy) and sugarcane and more food with the guys plus their crazy antics made a hectic day end off pretty nicely. but...

i woke with kinks in my body that would not go away and being in not so good shape leads to me being not in the best of moods now. i feel like disappearing, because im annoyed. beyond f'ing annoyed. and its tough to ignore somethings, so disappearing kinda works out. and life right now, bout sucks donkeys ass and not to mention, my arms are bout to fall off. ugh and my tummys churning. so yeah, not one of em good days. when you know that there are soooooooooooooo many things to be done that take precedence over anything else, but instead you're just so caught up with how ur feeling. caught up in everything. and the worst feeling in the world, is to get caught up in ur own damn emotions and get stuck in that rut. well, boo for me then cos i haven't even hit strike three and i'm already out.

maybe its just pms talking but im so irritated! grr and ur the cause of it.

à moi vous êtes parfait; 12:17

20061022

allthebutsinthisworld

i've always been a dreamer, i've had my head among the clouds. now that i'm coming down, won't you be my solid ground?

-

tmrs the 22nd. lets see..
the moms birthday tmr; but shes working
tennis is on at 3; but its hazy and hazy equals uneasy breaths
youre coming back soon!; but thats in 2 months
its a saturday; but its over and sundays here. sundays are a reminder.. that come monday, reality's back to kick ur ass.
you can have your cake; but you cant eat it.

get what i'm trying to say here?

à moi vous êtes parfait; 00:13

20061020

cantstopthisthingwestarted

There are moments in our lives when we find ourselves at a crossroads. The choices we make in those moments can define the rest of our days. And, of course when faced with the unknown, most of us prefer to turn around and go back. There are moments in our lives when we find ourselves at a crossroads. But, once in a while, people push onto something better. Something found just beyond the pain of going it alone. And just beyond the bravery and courage it takes to let someone in. Or to give someone a second chance. Something beyond the quiet persistence of a dream. Because, it's only when you’re tested that you truly discover who you are. And, it's only when you're tested that you discover who you can be. The person you want to be does exist; somewhere on the other side of hard work and faith and belief. And, beyond the heartache and fear of what lies ahead.

ok its the weekend and im permitted to be lazy/slack all day and online shop and blog in point form! it gets tiring man; blogging! (funny how i still update daily) haha which is kinda pathetic! haha okay! not the point! the point is that ive gt some stuff to say! and wouldn't it be easier to read em in point form?!! see, im a genius!

first of, if u happen to click on the niqq over there >>> haha be prepared to get the fucking laugh of ur life! i know i did! hahaha its so hilarious! but i duno which is funnier, the layout or wat he types!! ;p im kiddin! ur funny la(ok, I THINK IM BEING NICE!)! haha if ur not amused den maybe it's just me and im psycho! but whoever defined psycho anyways!!
i always seem to have the crappiest beyond disgustingly crap of lunches!! take tdy for example! i should slap myself cos hey, i actually HAVE sth to eat. but for once, i think a nice lunch would do some good to my recently irritatingly shit of days. den again good dinners always follow up! haha but hello! there has to be a balance!
and since im on the topic of stuff you can put in ur mouth, sparkling ribena is the yummiest thing ever! practically fit for gods! ok finee, if ur gods are 5 years old. but den again, it comes up tops in my list of 'to drink's haha
think nadal and federer's gon have another face off. oh! and federers gt a damn nice style sense, but considering how rich he is maybe he has a stylist no? haha owells! whatevre it is, the boys looking fine!!
and if u compare him to nadal who, no offence! cos i think he has the hottest arms!!! sorry to digress! yes, nadal, he HAS to pick at his ass like before every game, hence we come to the conclusion that federer = class!
having the whole house to urself, isnt exactly the best thing sometimes! esp when u have a pain in the ass cat who thinks hes a puppy. u have noooooooooooooo idea how innocent meow-ing can turn into someone pulling their hair out. im serious
o!! and how friggin big is vivocity? big ginormously big? or WTFOMGARGHHHHH shooppping galore big ass big? watever it is i wanna go
i havent eaten venezia in forever!
ahh.. on to the emo stuff:
you know how things get routine after awhile and all you wanan do is break out of it but you just cant? yeah thats kinda the way i feel now, and its sufffocating! can u tell how much i want the holidays to come?
i don't understand why people like to push things away. watever it is you know? wouldnt it be easier to sacrifice looking like an ass for 2seconds and just let it out? hurhur and you wonder why some people look constipated 24/7 den ey?
ok yano what! scratch that!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! since you know, no one understands haha! but thts okay :p
btw, is the point form thing driving you nuts? its kinda driving ME nuts! ok, on that note of going nuts, i shall stop.

à moi vous êtes parfait; 15:15

20061019

purpleskiesandswolleneyes

don't you worry, friday's not that far away

-

oohhhh!i had a super nice(but short) nap before din! cos the moms birthday's in 3 days!! aiyo, the weather was so super gloomy, i was in time-to-nap mode from like 10 in the morn where i ffreezed to death in the infamous lt11 to during lunches in hell to stats tut at well, sci fac('nough said!) haha wat a crapass day! running arnd like a jackass.

thursdays suck. really. the weathers been seriously depressing lately!! and all i wanna do is switch on the air-con, cuddle up in my comforter and sleeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeep! like seriously NOT WAKE UP till christmas comes! i love christmas! everythings always alright when christmas comes :D espeacially when theres food and presents and ur favourite people arnd! heh oh and 5 days from it... NEWYEARS! when everyone's allowed to go kookoobananas abit! but its the time of year when you can actually let ur hair down, spray toxic stuff into people's eyes(not that i do that!!!!), drink tho ur underaged, laugh till ur tummy hurt in public, to the extent where rofl isn't just an acronym, stuff ur face with limitless amounts of food and barf in the same night and no one will think you have a problem. you know?

oh! and mat kearney's won't back down is on repeat in my mwp/itunes(cant decide which is better! so im using both! HAHA)!! but I LOVE THAT SONG!!!! hurhur

ocrap gtta run! crapass of a crapshit geog prog to start doing again! ugh being an undergrad stinks. anyone who thought it'd be good fun was seriously disturbed! ooohhhh!PRISONBREAK is on, hur okays maybe after this i'll start :p

wahlao, just realised i used a buncha 'seriously' in this post! hahhahaa how rubbish! thats seriously bimbo! YOU SEEEE?

à moi vous êtes parfait; 21:48

20061018

handsdown

abit fucked up cos the dude went off key! but couldnt find any other acoustic ones! i never get sick of this song! cos its soooooooo schhhwweeettt! aww! hahah enjoyy! :p

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wooo! gt back from a bout of shopping with the vonne! ;p so fun! too bad f'ing topshop was closed dammit. owells, it was still fun tho, espeacially when shoes and clothes and spending(and bitching) is involved ey? haha cheers to shopping!

oyes, i take back what i sed bout wayniq sucking, on the tagboard that is. haha since hes the only one who helps un-bore my tagboard! :/ my bad boo!!!!!!!!

à moi vous êtes parfait; 14:45

20061017

whatsworse?

someone told me today, that attachment brings suffering. i know it sounds super uncaring and to an extent morbid? hmm, but theres some truth in it. and human beings aren't solitary beings to say the least. i guess attachment is an innate quality in all of us, be it for support, cos let's face it, we can't do everything on our own, even though there are many who think they can, or be it for those who are just plain sick in the head as to abuse attachment and use others for their own benefit(hello, incase u were in happy-i-dont-giva-fuck-land, such people do exist). you see, attachment is all around us. we can't avoid it. heck, we're born into it.

we are all attached to something or someone right? and it feels damn good when whatever it is that you're attached to is around, just there. in plain sight. and because we need to place meaning into things, people or watever, we unconciously build the pillows that (we hope) will break our fall when shit hits the fan. but not many people realise their attachments at all and often, we take them for granted. till its too late. well, i kinda guess thats human nature too.

so, you know how people say life's nothing if we haven't gt anything to hold on to? well, that's right too. but if you thought attachments the bestest thing in the whole bloody wide world, let me tell you something. its not. and it hurts. because you were stupid enough to put everything you have into things, animals, people. and soon, they leave us, whether you like it or not. thats the funny thing tho isn't it, things get lost/stolen, animals and people, they just leave us. they run away or walk away or die. it happens all the time, and we know it. so you know where suffering comes into this huh.

but what's worse? attachment or none of it at all? one things for sure tho, no matter how hard we resist it, push things away.. we can't control attachment.

-

ps. i duno if i have the right to blog bout this. rui's friend's bro died and it kinda sucks. kinda have some relation to this if you haven't noticed. knowing its gon happen doesnt make things better. attachment just stinks.

à moi vous êtes parfait; 13:59

20061016

goodnewsforpeoplewholovebadnews

you ever look at a picture of yourself and see a stranger in the background? it makes you wonder how many strangers have pictures of you, how many moments of other peoples lives have we been in, were we a part of someone's life when their dreams came true, or were we there when their dreams died. did we keep trying to get in, as if we were somehow destined to be there, or did the shot take us by surprise. just think, you could be a big part of someone else's life, and not even know it.

i guess its something we don't realise, but we affect people in more ways than one. and its only when the truths out that we see, or we hope to see.. that we'd made a difference.

-

its back to the routine again! (: slacking. yay but just found out ive gt 2 tests on nov2(STATS AND POLI SCI! HELLO IM GON DIE). great. seriously, things HAVE NOT BEEN TOO HOT LATELY! or will be anytime soon. i think im destined to be like sad and get slapped in the face time and time again with work. and i have absolutely the most limited interest for school right now ok.. and i just wanna play tennis. DAMMIT! ugh, think i needa nap.

i really likee ben jelen's come on! it epitomises teenage angst! and he can scream pretty good too haha hes damn teddy geiger-ish! but still think TG's hotter! nice eyes! okays, not the point! yeah ben jelen, kinda old song already i think. but its still good! AND HE HAS THIS UNCANNY RESEMBLANCE TO NADAL! yano the bull of a tennis player? maybes the hair :/ anyways, go dwld or something the videos kinda weird also.. soo... hah and just so u know im not boy crazy, its just that musicians are hot!(see for urself!) haha!!!!!!!!!! ok nough nonsense! nap. cyas!

à moi vous êtes parfait; 13:45

20061015

whenlifetriestokickyourass

the longest weekend of my life? you could say that! i havent done this much work since i entered nus. wait, i havent been doing anything at all. and it had to all arrived AT THE SAME TIME!(ok, so our bad since we actually had a mnth to do our geog project! but slackers will be slackers right? but ull see im changing!!!!) so u know what happens when reality slaps a whole buncha crap in ur way right? TIME TO PANIC! hahhaa

and you know how ur conscience nags at the back of ur head? when there's something important to to be done but you cant get off ur arse and actually do it? yep. thats what happened, couldnt even sleep properly, like you go to sleep thinking bout it and wake up thinking bout it. all i wanted to do was nap and watch teevee(ILL NEVER TAKE YOU FOR GRANTED EVER AGAIN!!!) so i just decided to sit down and do it. and anyone who's studied with me before know that i don't stop! hahaha! carm was like gng to pee like every 15mins that day and i just sat there 8hrs. STRAIGHT! making piecharts/graphs(which are the cutest things ever btw!) with my new best friend 'minitab'. OYA! and i had to GIVE UP PLAYING TENNIS! like wtf k.

but i did it! like friggin done it! SO ITS OVER WITH! and im elated!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! CAN YOU TELL?

haha it feels hella good too. the only shit part is that the weekend has come and gone. sunday was a comeplete SHUNday, like some bloody recluse and you wanted everyone to just shut the hell up cos the voices in ur head were alr too loud! haha oh plus mondays start off with a BANG! thats right, lecture starts at 8 AM! FRIGGIN 8AM! no kid. that the only thing keeping me from school, waking up. o and excessively using my brain.(ITS BEEN THROUGH ENOUGH THIS WEEK!!)

my head hurts something good. someone go school for me leh...

à moi vous êtes parfait; 23:39

20061014

isitover?

i open my eyes, hoping like hell the weekends over. but its not.
nothing's been done. and im fretting something good.

most of our fantasies resolve when we wake, vanished to the back of our mind, but sometimes we're sure if we try hard enough -- we can live the dream.

-

MANUNITED BABEH! WOOOOOOOOO! their two up now from one down! blow the goddamn whistle already!! o and check this out..

im officially in love with nemanja vidic! i think hes superrr hot!! (from most angles anyways!) and i like his sexy mole! haha some moles are hot, some are not. hur this ones a bloody good example of the former :p

à moi vous êtes parfait; 21:00

20061013

timingiseverything

too bad everything couldn't have come a worse time ):

longest two days of my life, wait actually weeks, oh heck scratch that, months. SIGH spending a grand total of 20hrs in school in two days, thats a record k. and most of it in the school library staring at books and my laptop, OH AND I HAD TO HAVE MACS FOR DIN TWO FRIGGIN DAYS INA ROW TOO! its taking its toll people. my skins damn dryyyyy and my lips are dangass red. and i'm starting to hate staring at a damn screen. it doesnt even talk back to you. which = not good. anyone who says uni's sooooooooooo fun, ought to be shot, slapped and shat on. grrr.. cos its not. bloody projects, and weekends burnt too cos of midterms(KNN!). argh, i want this weekend to be over sooooooooooooooo bad ); someone make it all go away! PLEASE! ugh, i know im complaining, but who gives a rats ass!! u can either cont'd to read and get infected by my apparent frustration or piss off. cos im really in no mood to entertain.

the only nice things i got to do were that i got to eat apple pie, WATCH TEEVEEE(argh! i miss you my darlin!), take a damn long hot hot shower and actually put geog outta my head for abit. and thats not saying alot.

o! and at least i get to come home and talk to people online(yeahyeah, i know, again on the laptop and im totally tripping over my feet here), but that makes my day a tad less boring and me less anti-social. and the MAYBE possibility of playing tennis come sunday. if i get my shit tgt that is.. argh!

and i hope the post office people get to fix the add before they really send it out and i hope you get it soon! bloody forest a1008, backside lo. ohyeah! just dont freak when u pop it open and a shitload of glitter explodes out from! hahah IM KIDDIN LA. no such thing. and remb to send me snow and a couple of chipmunks! id like that alot (:

so like i said, timing's everything. not luck. cos sometimes shit just happens, ALL AT A GO. and its never fair. but you also know what they say bout making your own luck, alas, you cant always get what you want. so you know what the green people say..... SUCK THUMB!

à moi vous êtes parfait; 11:59

20061011

questions

got this from carms blog. shes gt the most amusing stuff :p

so.... this is what you have to do, name 20 people you can think of at the top of your head, without reading the questions below.

1. wayniq the new fats
2. yvonnee
3. chrystal
4. ruirui
5. jiaxiang(for some odd reason)
6. bridget(and her new boytoy,)
7. jeremy
8. sam
9. joshyboy
10. nick
11. carl
12. randeep
13. carmiee
14. santos
15. edmund handjob
16. jezzie
17. nick neo aka nehneh
18. nat
19. marc
20. siurong the gay/fungihand

how did you meet no.14? friggin CEEJAY, tho when we were in j1 everyone hated everyone else huh! and i kinda thot u were a sissy boy cos u cried in class! but everythings good now ey buddy? tennis kaki!!

what would you do if you never met no.1? hoho lets see, id be eating rum and raisins still, id have no filter for my music, wouldn't have met anyone more psycho ever!! but my life would be less interesting and full(of shit) ;p

what would you do if no.20 and no.9 dated? not tht it wouldnt be possible, cos its rong. but uckiness!!! IT'S SIURONG, HELLO!!!! eh rong, i hope u read this! hahahhaa

ever liked no.19? eeww! hes my cousin sickos!!

would no.6 and no.17 make a good couple? seeing how theyre opp ends of the globe, ah no, and even if they met, no. bridgets a brute people! and they helplessly in l-u-v with other people. so no.

describe no.3! oohh my pretty lady, nus'd be sucha blurr if not for this woman helping me along the way! hugs darlin!

do you think no.8 is attractive? sammy? i spose so! im her sister. i see her everyday and im kinda sick of seeing her, so can i say no? hah IM KIDDIN LA!

tell me something about no.7. hes snogging my sister. WAHHAHAHA other than that no comment!!!!!!! (cos i seriously duno s:)

do you know any of 12's family? not really, but i think ive met a relative of his dog. ring any bells t11?????

what's no.18's favorite? honestly, i dont know! maybe ashlee simpson and black eyeliner! haha

what would you do if 11 confesses that he/she likes you? tell someone, pronto!

what language does no.15 speak? bahasa indonesia(the coolest language ever hor? im kiddin! haha) and english? all with an angmoh accent now? we'll see!! hahaha

how old is no.16 now? 19 this year! dear, dont get smashed pls!

who's no.2's favorite band/singer? many many, remb britney! HAHA but currently. anything emo/sad/love-breakup song-ish goes :p

would you date no.7? wtf? NO. NEVER!

what's no. 10's last name? teo???? haha it wouldve been cooler if it were written as theo! HAHA ok randomness!

would you ever be in a serious relationship with no.18? if we werent cousins and if she was chad michael murray! heck id skip the whole 'serious relationship' bit and marry him right now la!

which school does no.3 go to? NUS the shithole NUS!!!

what's your favorite thing about no.5? hahaha!! where to begin ey! his fuck nonsenseee! like can rubbish anywhere, anytime, to anyone. and can someone please remove him from the front seat next time! its really dangerous!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

have you seen no.1 naked? haha what kinda question is that!! no comment!

i realise i like filling up nonsense like these when i have a monkey ass shit loada work to do, sigh. and if anyone bothers, havent been doing too hot lately. maybe things'll get better soon. maybe soon=dec :p

ps. check out the kitty cat thing at the side! HAHA ITS SO FRIGGIN FUNNY LA! LMAO

à moi vous êtes parfait; 20:53

20061010

willyoucomeback?

I guess it's up to me to find a way to get to you
And I can't see you
Getting used to
Living in the midst of your perfection
And I'm so lost
How can you trust?
Somewhere the sun is always shining

à moi vous êtes parfait; 10:08

20061009

whenthetiesthatbindarecut

when the world stood and laughed, poked, proded and taunted. i knew it was up to us to prove them wrong. but silly me, thinking it'd all work out. so isn't it funny how words can ruin everything. when things you shove away finally break free. the people you know you'll hurt, the necessary evil they call it, and you walk away because things might not go the way you want. what if the one person you walked away from never comes back, what then? would you risk it all by letting go? but if you could see me now, you'll see that there's no hate, just love and the hope that you'd see it. so know that i'm always standing in your doorway, because i'm not going anywhere.

i want to let you in on a secret, i'm not who you think i am, in fact, my disguise is so thin, i'm surprised you haven't seen right through me. i'm the girl of your dreams masquerading as your best friend. and when i finally ripped off this facade, you got scared and ran away again. someone once told me there are two types of girls: the ones you grow out of, and the ones you grow into. i really hope i'm the latter. i may not be the one you love today, but i'll let you go for now, hoping that one day you'll fly back to me because i think you're worth the wait.

à moi vous êtes parfait; 10:30

20061008

bringthecrazyoneback

i cried alot this week.
like wednesday and.. whatever.
its miserable.
shit happens right? ):
but boo cos it happened to me.

i wanna be happy again!
and i know what it'll take
but i cant have it
so no point thinking bout it

all i want is someone to bring crazy back :p

gotta laugh outta this today,

WAYS TO TURN DOWN UNWANTED MEN!

HE ?? I'm a photographer. I've been looking for a face likeyours.SHE : I'm a plastic surgeon. I've been looking for a face likeyours.

HE ?? Hi. Didn't we go on a date once? Or was it twice?SHE : Must've been once. I never make the same mistake twice.

HE ?? How did you get to be so beautiful?SHE : I must've been given your share.

HE ?: Will you go out with me this Saturday?SHE : Sorry. I'm having a headache this weekend.

HE ?: Your face must turn a few heads.SHE : And your face must turn a few stomachs.

HE ?? Go on ,don't be shy. Ask me out.SHE : Okay, get out.

HE ?? I think I could make you very happy.SHE : Why? Are you leaving?

HE ?: What would you say if I asked you to marry me?SHE : Nothing. Ican't talk and laugh at the same time.

HE ?? Can I have your name?SHE : Why? Don't you?already have one?

HE ?? Shall we go see a movie?SHE : I've already seen it.

HE ?? Where have you been all my life?SHE : Hiding from you.

HE ?? Haven't I seen you some place before?SHE : Yes. That's why I don't go there anymore.

HE ?? Is this seat empty?SHE : Yes, and this one will be if you sit down.

HE ?: So, what do you do for a living?SHE : I'm a female impersonator.

HE ?: Your body is like a temple.SHE : Sorry, there are no services today.

HE ?: If I could see you naked, I'd die happy.SHE : If I saw you naked, I'd probably die laughing.

haha. ok so i laugh at idiotic, slap-me kinda stuff, but i don't care. need stuff to un-mope-pify myself. u get what i mean? guess not. ive been referred to as a tomboy whos in desperate need of dresses, emo and a m&m this week. doesnt make sense but go figure. anyways, time to whack afew SNICKERS bars and get some econs into my close to empty head cos its so fulla oth among other non-academically related stufff, i think i even repeat their lines in my sleep. sigh and i miss......

à moi vous êtes parfait; 12:58

20061007

lookatmeandsayit

i ask myself, "do you know what you are getting yourself into?" i'm getting into you, because you got to me, in a way words can't describe. i'm getting into you, because i've got to be, you're essential to survive. i'm going to love you with my life.

à moi vous êtes parfait; 20:06

20061006

nothingyouconfesscanmakemeloveyouless

So many black and white
Are made to be so blue
We've all got our wars to fight
But I won't fight with you
If I could just get your attention
I'd never let it go
Until you've felt what I am gonna say....

Oh, why's it gotta be that everybody's gotta see the sadness
Everybody's lonely, we don't have to be lonely baby
Listen to me as my hands shake
Cause I want you, I need you
I can't live without you, baby

Baby don't move at all
Cause you're about to break my fall

à moi vous êtes parfait; 10:28

20061005

don'tgo

it's always been people walking away.

won't you stay and be with me, my love?

ps. happy birthdayy niq babbeeh! sucks when ur away ):

à moi vous êtes parfait; 11:55

20061001

thethingswemiss

gay tennis players, nice surprises, super good din, major bitching (: what a day! o other than just finding out bout econs mid term test bit. haha nvm a week to mug!

plus tmr gon pon class to go stationERY shopping!(E for pen, A for car, i get it niq!! hahah!) yay, that makes me happy! we used to go oh-so-often! right vonee? haha our after school popular visits to get tonnes of pens/markers we dun exactly need. but tht takes away boredom! esp the dog's and fmc's class. haha i miss those times! and i miss ceejay!

ohhhh! and i found old birthday cards in the process of looking for my 10mnth-long-stashed-up pencil casee. hahha everything still works tho!! heh. i had a field day testing out markers and pens!!! hahha everyone has an outlet la! mines weird, hurhur but bet urs is worse! but thts beside the point! the cards! so sweett, a big ass card and everyonee wrote init with birthday wishes! the odac people! and that was like 4years ago! sweet 16. haha that was how freeking long ago please. heh, but it was nice, you know, looking at the old cards and stuff. most of us havent changed!! niqs still close to the ♥(i miss the boy with the red wall ):), ruis still funny in his own hilariously sudden outburts kinda way, vonnes still a pink bimbo(heh! ur still my bestest bud!), jias still an ass(*wink im kiddin la fatty!), jezziee still writes longg lovely notes(i found a buncha christmas cards too!), lemins still a straight to the point no nonsense-man and kel, carl, yung, erwan, rosi, siewyen and the rest of em odac peoplee! much lovees! that really made a good day great (:

hmm i wonder why people dont do such things anymore, cos its all smses and online stuff now. its funny because cards are personal and they actually can last a lifetime, you know, cos not many things do anymore, plus its not that difficult at all! more importantly, its nice to look back 4yrs and see that relationships forged with people back den are still existent today and that we'd always have each other(whereever we maybe!). it isnt always easy, but it proves that time can't always take things away from us because at the end of the day, its our call, to make things work whatever happens.

if i could see you now, id give you a hug and tell you how much u mean to me baby, tu me marquez.

à moi vous êtes parfait; 23:09